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Past the Credits

“A poem about disassociation”


Move.
My brain is here.
My body there.

 

I need to move.
The body doesn’t respond.
My body.
I am not in control of this.
My body.

 

A cracking blur
it sends parts of me
-farther down a road I can’t see. 

 

I need to push-
I need to break the world.
Something between slips when I reach.
A wall grows taller to capture my body.

 

I will fucking climb this wall until it comes down.
I will move.

 

The wall grows higher.
I can’t control
my limbs, my blinking: my self.
I see the body on the landscape, staring
my blood is cold.

 

With the discovery of my own horror
I melt down into the depths of my brain that should belong only to me.

 

Who else would they belong to? I was born with a body that fights back.
I didn’t know it would fight me.

 

I see lists of things that are out of my control scroll past like the credits at the end of a movie that should still be playing.

 

I see the seconds count down like popcorn falling into my lap. One by one, I see my fear swallow myself, but I can’t control my throat to make it sink faster.

 

I don’t know why I need more beat for my heart,
but here I am
climbing walls going down.

 

But I give
I give my gasping breath for
another minute for
another second with my child.

 

I’m breathing with my own lungs again.

 

My blood is here, not for pain
not for a reason given from a faraway God
but for love of my one child of mine.

 

I’m ready for the next scene.

Dating a Cloud

“I want a poem about a bad date with a smoker.”


 She dates with a subway stare
passing through the appetizers
like a soldier wading through a swamp
pushing reeds aside for the wine.
 

 

More and more the people nudging
clutching at her sleeves like ghosts
trying to push her smile out
haunting her with obscene jokes.
 

 

A Saturday date inside, but
she smokes with a Sunday fervor outside
forging a private atmosphere
with every grey breath she forms
 

 

so she climbs into her cigarette cloud
both hands digging down, like a hazelnut
 

 

burrowing past all colors
through the skull of the Earth
through the edge of her drowsy wine
into her heart- still warm on the plate,
for all that want to bite the black.

Brown Boredom

“i think a poem about the loss of imagination/curiosity as people become ‘grown up’ would be interesting”


The echo of brown boredom
calls us to crouch and sleep.
Drift like it doesn’t matter
-like the walls are untouchable.

 

Life is limited to time spent relaxed
every heartbeat is aimed for blood
to pump, pump, pump for regurgitating reason.

 

Days long ago were made for galloping-
exploring the scrambled for fun.
Tasting has dissolved into eating
and the rubber of our soles wear thinner.

 

It is necessary to nurture the wild.
Trap the stars in our eyes.
Cage the craving curiosity.
Weave nets to snag rafts.
We perch on waves of melancholy;
watching our footprints wash away.

Spanish Armada Dolphin Cheese

“Hello

I would like a poem about a dolphin that falls in love with the spanish armada. But it’s actually a metaphor for cheese making. Or, one about love.

Thanks”


My love has slowly brewed
warmed for only five minutes
spreading from fin to tail,
like quiet waves approaching
the clean white beach.
 
The wooden ships on Spanish shore,
bobbing – blowing gently with natural tendency.
Sweet tender Spanish armada, sleep.
I will wait for dawn before stirring,
because our love can only thicken.
 
Your covered decks seize the dawn,
stretch your rafters, nest, and sails.
Today our love lifts away from here,
with your elegance – my heart elopes.
 
I follow you in these changing seas,
but my heart seems to only dissolve in you
as you trudge bravely on to war-
brushing my painted heat into the ocean.
 
You remain unstirred from my touch,
but I follow your white sails silent.
Whispering heartsrings tug me to you,
forever across this callous sea.
 
Now hark! What rope is so cruel
as one which turns your cannons.
Lighting the air to new flame,
striking the stranger.
 
My Spanish sunshine smashed,
a rage of smoke sweeping all.
English and Spanish sweat strain
breaking the peace with gunpowder.
 
The admiral’s sword cuts swiftly,
turning and cutting through English muck.
I smash against the wooden hordes,
and pieces break from all sides.
 
My heart flicks unbridled and furious,
but mi Armour is no more.
Shriveled and shrinking, he is cut.
 
I took the pieces away.
Scraps and splinters.
My wooden treasures I keep,
like clouds saving the sun at night.
 
Slowly my love comes again,
and I take one piece of the bow under
into the salty depths of the sea
so we can fly from the smoke.
 
Bloody waters gone,
now we must hold together,
tightly- for the sea is harsh.
We wait for the moon to wane
and wait for the sun to shrug the pain
and my fins can bandage our love again.

Almost-forgotten

“An almost-forgotten love, and a new start with a cherished girl?”


Some trees lose their way
deep underground
in the meaningless dirt.
Searching for water,
until one tendril touches,
and the water once lost
rushes through roots.
Exuberant wood racing,
and the tree can breathe.
The water fills another heart.